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  • Time, Time, Time ⌛

    It feels like years since I’ve written.*

    Since then…

    the Wheel of Time Season 3 trailer dropped.

    Season 3 is airing in March – just in time for my birthday.

    If you love fantasy books like Lord of the Rings… I’d love for you to give this a watch next month and nerd out with me. Even if you haven’t read the books – the visual design and performances for this show are so stunning I’d really recommend watching first and then diving into the books.

    This season is based on my favorite book in the series!

    The Shadow Rising is when Wheel of Time steps away from Tolkien and starts being it’s own thing.

    Half the characters travel to the desert and meet a complex warrior culture. The others go hunting down some very dangerous women. The layers build from there! I can’t even mention my two favorite parts because they are too spoilerific, but check this image out:

    A misty location with two figures suspended within three silver rings

    Don’t you want to know what’s happening there?

    I’m dying to see this scene. It happens “off page” in the books. 👀

    [This Clip Contains Spoilers]

    If you’re a book reader (or just don’t care about spoilers) here is the first scene of Season 3. We are starting out with a bang!


    What else happened this month?

    Well… I completely redesigned my website. 😂

    It’s still “under construction” so pardon my dust (and broken links) as you’re poking around. I hope to “unveil” the new site properly next month.

    I wrote a few posts including this one about website design as worldmaking. My old website was a minimalist website (which lives on as a virtual art gallery.) But I’m letting the rest of my site be weirder and more me.

    I hope it will sprawl and grow into a proper labyrinth.

    I’ve been having a lot of fun with visuals and texture. But my favorite detail so far is this “page not found” design, which feels very me.

    Screencap of Sarahshotts.com 404 page. "You've fallen down a rabbit hole" and Tenniel illustration of White Knight from Alice in Wonderland stuck upside down with his legs poking out of the ground. "What you're looking for is no longer at this location."

    If you want to read the boring reasons about why I’m switching web & newsletter platforms I’ve written about my online ecosystem here.


    I’m leveling up my zines!

    This month I used a printing press to make the February zine.

    You can see the process (including a timelapse video) here. You can also see a mini Wheel of Time zine I made. I’m going to print them up and leave them around town as guerrilla fan marketing. (Let me know if you’d like to do the same and I’ll share the file.)

    Now that I have a printing press I’ve added a $10 tier where you can subscribe for quarterly prints as well as zines.

    I’ve also realized that the time I’m spending on these zines has been growing each month. (Especially in contrast to the simple letters I started with.) So I’m phasing out pledges below $5. This means I have more freedom to play with color and multiple page zines if I’m so inspired.

    I’m also stepping away from Patreon and Substack to host subscriptions on my own website.†

    Everything in one spot. (Finally!)


    Works in Progress

    Here’s a peek at what else I’ve been working on this month.

    Soft sculpture of a brain made from baby clothes. One hemisphere is sewn from baby socks, onesies and washclothes. Scraps sit on a wooden table to the side.
    SOFT SCULPTURE BRAIN

    Nearly done with my soft sculpture brain sewn from baby clothes. I have two hemispheres complete and need to spend some time refining them and doing finishing work. (They’re a little unbalanced at the moment.)

    Nested rainbow hearts drawn with crayons. Rainbow sorted colored pencils and art supplies to the left.
    home education rhythm

    The transition from holiday chaos back to a normal routine is hard for neurodivergents. Here is how we’re finding our feet again and freedom within structure.


    Now that I’m integrating my various blogs into one location my archive is much larger than I realized.

    Here are a few highlights.


    This time in 2015

    This time in 2021

    This time in 2024

    February seems to be a big month for me!

    It’s all that energy from surviving the holidays and getting back into a rhythm.

    (You can browse the February archive here.)

    I’m planning to move the archives month by month. Motivated in part by sharing this time hop with you. Which means (if all goes to plan) I’ll be done by next February.


    The Compost Heap is handmade without the use of AI. 🐝

    Support doing things the old fashioned way by joining my Patrons ($5) and I’ll send paper copies of my zines with the coolest postage stamps I can find.

    Not About TETRIS zine on a wooden table. The title is letterpress printed and three printed blocks in purple pink and yellow are arranged as if to pile up.

    Not into snail mail?

    Here are other ways you can support.

    • Share with a friend. (It’s free!)
    • Art swap! Let me know if you’d like to swap your art for a zine.
    • Buy a book or zine from my (new!) shop.
    • Link to me in your newsletter.
    • Send me a recommendation for something (book, blog post, movie, recipe, you name it!)

    Drawing of a tin can telephone and the words Let's chat

    I’d love to hear from you.

    Hit reply to email me directly.

    Let’s talk web design, printmaking, or Wheel of Time. 🥰

    Thanks for being here.

    I appreciate you.

    Sarah signed with a swoopy S

    Compost Heap Illustrations by

    Gracie Klumpp of Leave the Fingerprints. 🐞


    Footnotes

    * To share the Neuro Nest Retreat. The workshops were all recorded so you can still join in here. I’d love to have a weaving from you. (Yes, you!)

    † Substack supporters will continue to be charged through Stripe. Patreon has been shut down so anyone supporting there will need to resubscribe. (You should already have emails from those platforms, but if you have any questions at all just ask.)

    ‡ Something I’ve learned by moving blogging platforms a couple of times is that something always goes funky. Formatting is strange. Photos are hotlinked. Multimedia elements (audio, video, embeds) are missing or broken. And hardly anything has alt text. I’m using this chance to dust all the cobwebs before making posts public.

    Read more: Time, Time, Time ⌛
  • Home Ed. Rhythms

    I’ve spent a lot of creative energy on a home education rhythm that provides freedom within structure and so I thought I’d document it here.

    DISCLAIMER: Please don’t read this post as a how to. I’m not making any suggestions or judgements for families who do things differently. Every child has their own needs and there are endless ways to home educate. This is what works for us. For now. It may change tomorrow.

    Here’s a peek at our daily rhythms (watercolor clip art from Etsy).


    Gentle Morning

    This list is specifically curated to be things David can do after breakfast without my help. These suggestions are relatively quiet and not overstimulating as I do my morning journaling and write in my journal. Five years into parenting and I’m finally back to Julia Cameron’s morning pages.

    Gentle morning list with watercolor sunshines and lists of options like LEGO, reading, audiobooks, trampoline, drawing, etc.

    David is an early reader so these lists work well for us. At earlier ages I used a lot more pictures. He’s not limited to this list, but it can provide a reminder of what’s possible. After the holidays he spent hours sorting sequins and buttons. It was clearly very regulating and creatively fulfilling activity. He’s only just circled back to LEGO.


    Starting the Day

    Sometime mid morning we’ll find our way to the proper “school” activities. Just as he is learning to respect my work (he calls my morning journaling my “handwriting”) I respect the work he is doing. Whether it is playing with LEGO or “making an invention.” We don’t start our day by the clock.

    When a child is focused on a work it is important to them.

    In the case of an autistic child it may also be fulfilling complex needs that are not immediately obvious.

    (It’s me. I was the autistic child who’s now an autistic parent.)

    Instead of suppressing neurodivergent instincts to move, to stim, to dance, to echo, to hyperfocus…

    What if we really listened to our own bodies & capacities?

    What if we trusted ourselves & our kids more?

    Self advocacy means having autonomy to meet your own needs and pursue your own interests. That means our days are flexible and play blends into learning.

    To be clear (because someone always says it) this doesn’t mean David does “what he wants” all day long.

    Following the child doesn’t mean complete anarchy.

    Stay with me.


    Freedom within Structure

    The central tenant of our home education practice is freedom within structure.

    We have certain types of schoolwork that we do each day.

    Within that framework David has a lot of freedom.

    What emerges is a natural ebb and flow to the day. Periods of concentration and then self regulation. Handwriting then jumping on the trampoline. Math then LEGO.

    I don’t mean to suggest that it’s always easy. But when we find our rhythm and everyone is well regulated there is an ease to our day.

    Home Education Daily Practice with watercolor illustrations. Music, reading, math, writing, español. Choose one: science, geography, computer.

    This semester we’ve shifted Music and Español to daily (instead of weekly). I also added computer because it’s required for testing and we’re preparing for that. But we won’t be doing that every day.

    Art isn’t on the list because mark making (writing and drawing) are seen as the same thing for right now. Some days we draw letters. Some days we draw numbers. Some days we draw shapes. One day for “handwriting” we drew these nested rainbow hearts together. Parallel play is a really powerful support tool.

    Nested rainbow hearts drawn with crayons. Rainbow sorted colored pencils and art supplies to the left.

    The Power of Choice

    Another opportunity for choice is how we do math or reading or handwriting. I made this list so David can choose between a handful of ways to engage with each subject.

    Choose Your Adventure homeschool list with options for math, reading, writing, music, spanish, and science.

    We’re still finding our cadence with this. There are enough options we can mix things up by choosing something new each day. Or avoid repeating what we did yesterday. Our list is laminated so we can keep track.

    I believe this approach (freedom within structure) encourages self directed learning that can continue throughout life. Education should kindle our interests and curiosity.

    My own home education was similar. My mom was very hands on in elementary, but as I got older I was completely self directed. And I just never stopped learning. I wasn’t doing it because I had to. I was doing it because I love to learn. By the time I got to university my professors just laughed because I took electives that “didn’t count for anything.” 😂


    After Lunch

    We also have an afternoon list of activities he can do any time after lunch. These are often sensory reset breaks between the more structured “school work” above.

    Afternoon list of activities with a watercolor illustration including educational apps, TV, movement and sensory activites.

    The goal is to be completely done with schoolwork before 3pm. That’s the time of day David is allowed to play Zelda (otherwise he would choose Zelda 24/7). Right now that is proving a strong enough motivation for him to persevere on the tough days.

    This is how we’re navigating the tension of structure and freedom. But there’s a lot more to how we home educate. Sensory supports, field trips, gardening, baking, nature walks.

    I’ve created a landing page for home education that you can browse here.

    Or take a peek at our home brew curriculum.

    Read more: Home Ed. Rhythms
  • Leap Before You Look (2015)

    By Helen Molesworth


    These early index cards were specifically collected for ideating the type of creative community I want to cultivate.

    Handwritten index cards. Quotes typed below.

    There are a lot of threads to pull on here.

    “the aspirations of Black Mountain College: namely to inspire us in an expansive notion of the arts and creativity through close observation, physical engagement, service, and play…”

    Jill Medvedow (p. 18)

    Keeping an expansive view of art and what it can do and be. It also feels important that creativity can both be of service and play which so often seem at odds with one another.

    Handwritten index cards. Quotes typed below.

    “artistic exchange” and “the cultural ecosystem is a theme”

    Jill Medvedow, p. 18

    “the effect of a long gestation period cannot be under estimated”

    p. 20

    “Josef Albers insisted that art display a rigorous understanding of its material properties.”

    p. 25

    Handwritten index cards. Quotes typed below.

    This quotes are at the heart of a desire for social change. It still feels very radical to value the wisdom of youth. And also the focus on practical learning.

    “We must realize that the world as it is isn’t worth saving; it must be made over.”

    John Rice, p. 30

    “We should realize there is a wisdom of youth as well as wisdom of old age.”

    John Rice, p. 31

    “There are things to be learned through observation (that) cannot be learned any other way.”

    John Rice, p. 31

    Handwritten index card. Quotes typed below.

    “Whatever cannot be expressed in words cannot be learned in words.”

    John Rice, p. 31


    This ties in to a conversation I had with Morgan Harper Nichols and this idea that art is a form of communication.

    It feels very relevant to Neurokind as platform to share experiences that may transcend or defy language.


    Black and white photograph of white man lighting pipe
    John Andrew Rice and student David Bailey, Blue Ridge campus, Black Mountain College, circa 1933 or ’34

    “…there is something of the artist in everyone and the development of this talent, however small, carrying with it a severe discipline of its own, results in the students becoming more sensitive to order in the world and within himself than he can ever be through intellectual effort alone.”

    John Rice, Black Mountain College Bulliten, 1935 (p. 34)

    Black and white photograph of Buckminster Fuller, Elaine de Kooning, and Josef Albers in field of collapsed geometric dome at Black Mountain College.
    Bucky Fuller, Elaine de Kooning, Josef Albers, students, and a thing that would become, a year later, the first geodesic dome

    “The summer sessions permitted an extraordinary form of cross-pollination.” 🐝🐝🐝

    “Almost none of the summer faculty was paid a salary but received instead room and board and some relaxing time in the country.”

    Helen Molesworth , p. 42

    “The summer sessions modeled a form of artistic community, one that de Kooning took with him to New York in 1950, when he helped to found the Artists’ Club, a gathering dedicated to the presentation of avant-garde ideas.“

    “Black Mountain helped to establish the idea that an art school is a place of competing and diverse ideas, where the task of the faculty is to commit to a sense of rigor instead of personal taste, and the job of the students is to navigate the complexity of the options, in the hope of finding their own paths through what John Cage called “the big question,” namely, “What are you going to do with your time?”[^3]

    Helen Molesworth, p. 45

    “the relation is not so much of teacher to student as of one member of the community to another.”

    Black Mountain College Catalogue
    Leap Before You Look, p. 80

    “In essence there exists the utmost freedom for people to be what they please. There is simply no pattern of behavior, no criteria to live up to. People study what they please, as long as they want to, idle if they want to, graduate whenever they are willing to stand on examination, even after only a month here, or a year, or whatever, or they can waive all examinations, and graduations. They can attend classes, or stay away. They can work entirely by themselves, or they need not work whatever. They can be male, female, or fairy, married, single, or live in illicit love.”

    Jack Tworkov , p. 42

    These examples highlight an egalitarianism and exchange of ideas that I’d like to foster in creative spaces I facilitate.


    Students and John Andrew Rice sitting outside a stone building

    John Andrew Rice holding court with students (including Dave Bailey, in hat), Black Mountain College, circa 1933 or ’34

    “What you do with what you know is the important thing. To know is not enough.”

    John Rice, pg. 77

    “There were no letter grades at Black Mountain College, nor were there required courses, set curricula, standard examinations, or prescribed teaching methods.”

    “When John Rice established Black Mountain College in 1933, he sought to create a school that dissolved distinctions between curricular and extracurricular activities, that conceived of education and life as deeply intertwined, and that placed the arts at the center rather than at the margins of learning.“

    “For Rice, education was registered not by grades or other standard criteria but in a heightened desire to learn and to question, which would lead students to an expanded aptitude for solving a range of problems and to a richer sense of self.”

    Ruth Erikson, p. 77


    “WE DO NOT ALWAYS CREATE ‘WORKS OF ART,’ BUT RATHER EXPERIMENTS; IT IS NOT OUR AMBITION TO FILL MUSEUMS: WE ARE GATHERING EXPERIENCE.”

    Josef Albers, p. 33

    Josef Albers giving Nan Chapin (and others) painting pointers, Lee Hall porch, Blue Ridge campus, Black Mountain College, spring 1936

    Josef Albers giving Nan Chapin (and others) painting pointers, Lee Hall porch, Blue Ridge campus, Black Mountain College, spring 1936

    “Josef Alber’s thought of teaching art as analogous to teaching a language, hence the students had to begin with the building blocks of aesthetics; he called drawing a ‘graphic language’ that was both a ‘visual and manual act.’ “

    “Alber’s color course… proved that the experience of color was ultimately fungible.”

    For example: Cutting up and collating bits of paper to see how they change in relationship to each other.

    Helen Molesworth, p. 34

    “The relativity of our experience of color has philosophical and ethical implications, as well. If our experience of a piece of colored paper can change so demonstrably, then what side footing do we have when we appeal to ‘common-sense’ truths like color?”

    “forms are subject to perception – what Albers calls experience.”

    “The task of training students to see, “to open eyes,” as Albers often said, was to facilitate their critical awareness of the made qualities of the world around them, to make them self-aware of their own experiences to better prepare them for the democratic work of making considered choices.”

    “Rather Albers insisted on the relativity of color, the perceptual instability of human experience, and the need for a constant performance or testing of innumerable variables.”

    Helen Molesworth, p. 41

    This basis for experimentation is really key to BMC – although every artist interpreted that in their own way. Albers’ way was questioning your own perception and experience as a lesson to think deeply about the world.


    Footnotes
    1. Image Source: https://www.flickr.com/photos/davidsilver/29287248690/in/album-72157673611048125/

    2. Image Source: https://www.flickr.com/photos/davidsilver/7364006522/in/album-72177720312993838/

    3. John Cage question from interview in 1968. Interviewer: “But does that alter the fact that you might have preferred going to a different happening?” Cage: “That’s not an interesting question; for you are actually at this one where you are. How are you going to use this situation if you are there? This is the big question. What are you going to do with your time? If you use it negatively, you really are not consuming. You’re rather doing some other kind of thing which, as I’ve explained just now, loses tempo. You have somehow to use it posi-tively. We have illustrations of how to get at this, and it would be part and parcel of the new ethic or new morality or new aesthetic.” Source: p. 28 in John Cage: An Anthology (1991)

    4. Image Source: https://www.flickr.com/photos/davidsilver/29523433136/in/album-72157673611048125/

    5. Image Source: https://www.flickr.com/photos/davidsilver/18655203702/in/album-72157673611048125/


    Leap Before You Look Black Mountain College book over. Large yellow background with brown pressed leaves.
    Book Information
    Edition

    Hardcover

    Source

    Personal Library

    Publisher

    Yale University Press

    Publication Date

    2015

    ISBN

    9780300211917

    Length

    400 pages

    Dimensions

    9.50 x 12.50 in

    Book Information

    318 color + 170 b-w illus.

    I haven’t bought a book that cost this much since university, but it is a beauty. If you’re interested in reading I’d suggest checking out an interlibrary loan or trying library at your nearest art museum. But compared to going back to school for a Ph.D., which I briefly considered this Spring, this book is basically a steal. 😉


    Cross Pollinate 🐝

    More posts about Black Mountain College.

    Read more: Leap Before You Look (2015)