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  • From the kitchen table to NYC 🗽

    Flashback to four years ago…

    It was Christmas Day and I was sitting at the kitchen anxiously trying to finish a weaving to submit to an exhibition about motherhood.

    Here’s a video showing the weaving process. I made data weavings recording each time I was interrupted by tying a knot.

    I barely finished and photographed that work in time for the deadline. Looking back that first weaving (smaller and less textured than the one in this video) wasn’t a strong piece and I’m not surprised it was rejected.

    But the rejection stung because I was also told off for being unprofessional by photographing my work on a wall that wasn’t white. I felt like the art world was a secret club I didn’t have the passcode for. *

    The next year I submitted another weaving to another show. No snooty response, but it still didn’t connect.

    One submission a year clearly wasn’t working for me.

    So my 100 Submissions project was born.

    This was an energetic shift from holding each submission so closely to casting a wider net.

    I managed 11 submissions last year and the strangest thing happened…

    100 Submissions printable with 2 gold stars on a desk with a date stamp and two keys

    Grab yours here.


    Every submission connected.

    11 out of 11.

    There’s some bit of luck in submitting the right piece at the right time.

    But I think the real magic was putting myself out there without worrying if I had a “chance.”

    This led to…

    – exhibiting my art for the first time

    – speaking at my first author event

    – my first publication in an academic journal


    That’s a lot of firsts!

    I’m going to share this process – not to brag – but to encourage you to put your own work out into the world.

    I meant to share this process in real time, but I quickly became overwhelmed at the amount of admin work involved (emails, mailing art, etc.) and I couldn’t keep up with writing Substack posts too.

    Here goes!

    I kept track of everything in Notion. If you have the bandwidth I found this really useful because you can resuse / adapt submission materials instead of starting from scratch each time. This way you can build up some momentum.


    Submission #1 – NWA Book Fest

    Venue: NW Arkansas Book Festival

    Cost to Submit: None

    The first acceptance I had was to do a book reading and signing at a local book festival (NWA Book Fest). It was a great learning experience which I wrote about here.

    Takeaway: Author events are a massive energetic drain.

    What I learned was I simply I don’t have capacity for book festivals at this time. This was a very short appearance and it took me quite a long time to recover. So paying to be a vendor for a full day (or weekend) event would definitely push me past capacity.

    Here’s a clip of actual footage of me after the event. †

    “Success” isn’t worth it if it pushes you into burnout.


    Submission #2 – Carve Out Time for Art

    Venue: Instagram

    Cost to Submit: $25

    I considered this application to be a complete shot in the dark.

    I was stunned at the invitation to takeover Carve Out Time for Art on Instagram. This one gave me big imposter syndrome, but was actually a delight. This was one of the first acceptance emails that came in, but the takeover itself didn’t happen until much later in the year.

    Screenshot of Carve out time for art on Instagram

    The takeover is pinned to @carveouttimeforart’s highlights if you want to see.

    Takeaway: There are more people out there.

    Before I did this takeover I pretty much thought “everyone who wants my book already has it so I should stop talking about it.” It’s easy to fall into this trap when growth is slow or nonexistent. Reaching people beyond my normal subscribers brought a breath of fresh air. I made some new friends who followed me here! *waves* And sold a couple copies of my book. Not loads, but it broadened my horizons.


    Submission #3 – Stay Home Gallery

    Venue: Art Gallery (Paris, TN)

    Cost to Submit: $10

    Next, my textile piece Maternal Mental Health was accepted to an art exhibition about paradox in caregiving. Here’s a statement from the curator Tara Carpenter Estrada,

    “In Together/Alone, the paradox of emotions between “never alone” and “very lonely” felt by caregivers is given the spotlight. The societal devaluing of care-work places the responsibilities of care (and self-care) on individuals. Without structural support, a tension can arise between love and devotion, and resentment or anxiety— the need for alone time, and the need for togetherness.”

    An embroidery frame holds a cross stitch that reads "I'm Fine". A second image shows the reverse which is a tangled mess of navy blue thread.

    Maternal Mental Health / 2022 / textile / 11” x 15” 17”

    Stay Home Gallery is now closed, but you can see the show archived here.

    Takeaway: Try to align your expectations with reality.

    Because this was my first time exhibiting art outside university I really wanted to travel to the gallery opening. The whole situation was confusing because it was a hybrid show. On one hand it was a physical exhibition at an artist retreat – so I had to mail my work. But the main exhibition was on the Stay Home Gallery website. The physical location was not open to the public and was only seen by the artist residents. So there was no opportunity to visit and see the work in person. I was a bit heartbroken, to be honest, because my expectations weren’t aligned with reality. But it was my first tiny baby step into the fine art world.


    Submission #4 – Ought

    Venue: Ought: The Journal of Autistic Culture (Grand State University, MI)

    Cost to Submit: FREE

    The next thing I knew I was being published in an academic journal. My piece, The Benefits of Asynchronous Friendship, exploring my collaborative project with

    Claire Venus was accepted to Ought: Volume 4, Issue 2 (2023) The Internet.

    I wrote a short introduction to the article here.

    Black and white diptych shows two photographs. One shows feet on an oval rag rug with LEGO DUPLO and a grabber. The other shows feet in sandals beside a train track.

    I have a lot to say about this one that should probably live behind a paywall, but I found this process very challenging. I’m an academic – my day job is teaching university theatre courses – but I’m a theatre instructor. (Not an autism researcher.) And I’ve never written for an academic journal before.

    Takeaway: Academic writing = time consuming revision.

    The challenge came from writing a piece that was “too academic” to be creative and “too creative” to be academic. The editor didn’t quite know what to do with me. They literally said, “it is neither beast nor fowl.” 😂

    In the end, we decided to treat it as a creative piece, meaning I had to strip out the research I’d done and root the writing in my lived experience. It was a stronger piece afterward, but the timing couldn’t have been worse. Trying to edit this piece whilst also running a crowdfunder almost killed me.

    If I submit in the future it will be a visual artwork which wouldn’t require revision.


    Submission #5 – Cut, Torn & Mended

    Venue: Spilt Milk Gallery (Edinburgh, Scotland)

    Cost to Submit: Free to Members

    Cut, Torn & Mended was an open call for members of Spilt Milk Gallery including a virtual exhibition and printed zine. I submitted my bricolage, The Mental Load, which I created as a self regulation process after publishing my first book.

    A visual cacophony of broken toys and the detritus of motherhood fill a bamboo cutlery tray mounted on the wall. Most easily visible are a plastic snake, foam Pac Man, fishing pole, red tube, DUPLO train, caution tape, and bubble wands. There are also various candy wrappers, stickers, crayons, small toys, and broken objects throughout.

    The Mental Load / 2023 / broken toys, detritus of motherhood / 28” x 25” x 8”

    Takeaway: Virtual exhibitions are perfect for large or heavy works that are hard to mail.

    There’s no way I could afford to ship this piece due to it’s size and fragility so a virtual exhibit & zine was a perfect fit.

    View the virtual exhibition or purchase a copy of the Cut, Torn & Mended zine here.


    Submission #6 – Anthropology of Motherhood

    Venue: Three Rivers Art Festival (Pittsburgh, PA)

    Cost to Submit: FREE

    Anthropology of Motherhood Culture of Care was curated by Amy Bowman-McElhone, PhD and has traveled from Pittsburgh Three Rivers Art Festival to Dyer Art Center at National Institute for the Deaf.

    This is also the only exhibition I participated in that had funding to pay the artists.

    Still frame of 360 VR experience. A white play button floats over a nursery. Dark red yarn is strung around the room.

    Experience this work in 360 with the YouTube app.

    The work that was originally submitted was my 360 VR piece From Where I Stand. Once we started talking about the logistics of the VR headset the curators asked to show My Brain on Motherhood instead. It felt like a double acceptance because they considered both works worthy of exhibition.

    I also learned that this work was not the physical object itself, but the video. This makes sense in retrospect, but wasn’t obvious to me until they asked to exhibit the video. I changed the details in my portfolio to list this as a video piece.

    Takeaway: Video works are low cost. They don’t require framing or postage and are always “ready to hang” if a screen is available.

    I have a few other video WIPs I need to finish up and get into my portfolio. I’m also keeping an old iPad to display works as needed.


    Submission #7 – WoT Idol

    Venue: The Dusty Wheel, YouTube

    Cost to Submit: FREE

    This one was just for fun.

    Every submission was aired, but for me this submission was about putting myself out there and doing something for myself outside of my “professional” portfolio.

    If you’re new around here I’m passionately dedicated to the Wheel of Time and have recently reconnected to the community. Last April I submitted a WoT Idol parody video turning Wheel of Time characters into Sesame Street style puppets. I wrote about the experience here:

    Purple muppet style puppet with fluffy fur and ears


    Submission #8 – Spilt Milk Member Exhibition

    Venue: Spilt Milk Gallery (Edinburgh, Scotland)

    Cost to Submit: Free to Members

    Do you hear us… are you listening? was “curated through an open submission to members, without a defined theme, nor a selection process. All members were invited to have their work included. The process of removing the selection committee allowed for a more democratic way of exhibiting our artists’ works, free of judgement or censoring and for all voices to be heard with equal importance.”

    For this exhibition, members were invited to submit two works, and I submitted Meltdown and Meltdown Prevention. It felt like a nice opportunity to exhibit these works together and both were included.

    If you’d like to see this exhibition it is archived here.

    Takeaway: Exhibitions and open calls can come in many forms.

    The way Spilt Milk Gallery includes both curated and member exhibitions is a big inspiration in how I’ve decided to structureNeurokind.


    Submission #9 – Euphoria Quilt Project

    Venue: Instagram

    Cost to Submit: FREE

    When I saw this project by

    Euphoria Quilt Project I knew I wanted to submit a block, but I didn’t know if I had time to make one. Eventually I realized I could utilize the crazy quilting skills I’d developed while making my gleeman’s cloak and I made a quilt square from textured scraps.

    Crazy quilted square of textures like silk and velvet jewel tones sewn with golden thread and frayed edges

    This piece will be included in a quilt representing gender expansive joy organized by Eliot Anderberg. You can see some of the squares that have been submitted over on Instagram.

    I wrote the following about my square, “Embracing into my neuroqueer and nonbinary gender identity means leaning into the fact that I may appear eccentric. I explored that in this project by using the “wrong” side of several fabrics and improvising a “crazy quilted” design. Gender expression is also tied up in sensory experience for me so I also included some soft stimmy textures.”

    If you’re new here and didn’t know I was nonbinary maybe give this a read

    Sketchbook with hand drawn Pride flag surrounded by crayons

    Submission #10 – HNDL Magazine

    Venue: Instagram

    Cost to Submit: FREE

    HNDL stands for Highlighted Neurodivergent & Disabled Life and is a “magazine featuring the work of creatives who identify as neurodivergent, disabled &/or chronically ill”. Give them a follow over on Instagram.

    My piece Domestic Archaeology was included in HNDL Issue 2 (Fall 2023).

    Small toys arranged by color including red beads, marbles, bracelet, orange golf ball, carrots, beads, yellow spoon, cog, LEGO DUPLO, trophy, beads, K'nex, brown round DUPLO, wooden beads, drumstick, purple plastic shapes, k'nex, and beads.

    Domestic Archaeology / 2023 / lost items

    This was a piece I created with things we found under the couch. I wrote a bit about the process here.

    Takeaway: Virtual publications are a very accessible way to share work without printing and framing.

    I’m also noticing how this magazine has flexible deadlines which inspired the rolling deadline I implemented over at Neurokind.


    Submission #11 – Queer Anxiety

    Venue: All Street Gallery (New York City, NY)

    Cost to Submit: FREE

    After such a wild run of acceptance I was sure that this one was going to be my first rejection of the year. You’ll notice this is the second work I submitted to a queer space. I’m a baby queer – only openly identifying as nonbinary, ace, and neuroqueer as of last year. So I felt some imposter syndrome stepping into these communitites, but I’ve been embraced into these spaces with open arms.

    There’s something about exhibiting in NYC that feels like a right of passage. Even when I was packing up my work to mail it didn’t feel real. Luckily I had some friends who visited the exhibit on my behalf and documented that it was. (Thanks to everyone who sent me photographs and videos. You can see my work in situ here.)

    White child sized t shirt on a silver clothes hanger covered in clothing tags of various brands and sizes.

    Meltdown / 2023 / shirt & clothing tags / 16” x 20”

    QUEER ANXIETIES was curated by Blair Simmons, Eden Chinn, Sarah Hallacher, and Shuang Cai.

    “Through sculpture, the 13 exhibiting artists make objects that stand outside of normative interpretations of usefulness and conventionality, thereby expanding our worldview and possibilities for engagement. If queerness is an act of making things strange (or challenging norms), strangeness identifies potential points of rupture within social conditioning.”

    Takeaway: Submit the maximum amount of works possible (if you can.)

    I actually created a new piece specifically for this call, but when I saw that there was the opportunity to submit 3 works I also included Meltdown and Unravel. It’s always nice to give the curator choices.


    Some people have asked how I know about opens calls.

    The truth is by serendipity.

    Over the years I’ve connected with a variety of artists with similar overlapping interests. Many of them generously share opportunities (often on Instagram stories) which spark my interest.

    Huge shoutout to these lovelies who often share art exhibitions and residencies:

    Jocelyn Mathewes, Lauren Frances Evans, Catherine Reinhart, and Ashley Jane Lewis.

    And Tamzen Bryant who shared the local book festival.

    I’ve also really loved being a member of Spilt Milk Gallery who hosted 2 of these exhibits.

    I hope I’ve demystified the process and inspired you to submit your work.

    I wish you the best in making work and putting it out into the world. The next one I’m working on is a piece about roots for Motherlore Magazine. And if you’re neurodivergent I’d love to see your work submitted to Neurokind.

    It’s not scary. We’re all people making things happen.

    Cheers,

    Sarah signed with a swoopy S

    P.S. I’m rubbish at marketing, and this has been on my “to do” list for over a year. But I finally made a new footer to remind people I wrote a book / have courses / love comments. 🥰


    I’m a Renaissance Soul so I always have lots of irons in the fire. Here are just a few of the ways that we can connect. (Psst… comments and shares are my favorite. And they’re free!)

    1. Leave a comment!
    2. Share this post.
    3. Sign up for Self Publishing 101.
    4. Subscribe or submit work to Neurokind.
    5. Read my book Discover Your Creative Ecosystem (Curious what I mean by creative ecosystem? Start here.)

    Mockup of Discover Your Creative Ecosystem book by Sarah Shotts. A silhouette of bird in flight shows a landscape beyond.

    Footnotes

    * We don’t have white walls in our house so I purchased a large sheet of white hardboard from the hardware store. There is a small hole drilled that lines up with a nail in Davy’s nursery where I often hang works to photograph them. I also have a smaller board I can set up on an easel and photograph in the backyard. Light is almost always the problem so I tend to use a tripod for portfolio photos even though I hate them. I also have a small white IKEA table I use to photograph 3D works. Here’s a peek at my set up. It’s a relatively inexpensive solution. If your work is small and lightweight you could probably get away with a piece of foamcore and a pin stuck in, but my larger works have needed a nail to hang from.

    White hardboard leaned against a wall in my child's room propped up by a small wooden stool

    † (That’s Odo from Star Trek Deep Space Nine.) It took a lot out of me.

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  • How I Survived My First Author Event

    Last week I attended NWA Book Fest… my first appearance as an author. Indeed my first gathering of any kind since COVID times. I wanted to take some time to share about that experience.

    I’m attempting a bit of writing today while Davy “types” on his new keyboard and iPad app.

    I was so busy the week before I didn’t have any time to be nervous. I practiced my reading a time or two, installed the Square Up app to take credit card payments, and put my books in a box.

    There was a little bit of scheduling confusion and the event was running early so I was rushed right onto stage within minutes of showing up.

    (Not ideal for an autistic. I’m not gonna lie.)

    I also expected to be introduced and had only prepared for a reading. Somehow I managed to introduce myself and my book without rehearsal. I think its down to how often I have talked about my book online. Maybe it does get easier with practice. I wouldn’t say I’m captivating, but I did it.

    Right after my reading I had a group of blogger friends show up to hear me. They just missed me because of the schedule kerfuffle, but we took a photo anyway.

    Five women and a nonbinary author standing against a white brick wall smiling. It's chilly weather so we are all in various sweaters and jean jackets. Three are wearing sunglasses. I am holding my book.

    Then I did a short signing and sold 4 books. 🥳

    (Shout out to my friend Lori Lynn who served as my “emotional support extrovert” and helped me make small talk at my signing table.)

    It was really nice to see people respond to my book in real time. One woman immediately connected my book to The Artist’s Way which completely made my day. So thankful to everyone who dropped by to take a look.

    Some lessons I learned and will be adding to my self publishing course:

    • Print a QR code to purchase the ebook. (My hardcover is a deluxe edition and more people might have purchased the digital bundle at a lower price point.)
    • Print my Venmo code. (Spelling it out did not seem to work.)
    • Have something to hold business cards / stickers so they don’t blow away.
    • Probably bring a book holder as well. The books kept tumbling off the table and one or two may be damaged.

    Here is actual footage of me after the event. 😂

    (That’s Odo from Star Trek Deep Space Nine.)

    It took a lot out of me.

    I realized that this simple brief appearance pushed me to the edge of my capacity and I definitely should NOT sign up for longer events any time soon. (After two hours I felt the way I normally do after a whole convention. )

    I believe this is due to…

    • More sensory overload on a daily basis from parenting.
    • Diminished social capacity due to socializing with my toddler 24/7. (I’m just going to call him toddler till he turns 4, ok?)
    • Not going to any events for 3-4 years during early motherhood / COVID times. I am both out of practice at masking and have no desire to return to that level of social performance.

    Not only am I “re-entering” the world after COVID lockdowns, but I’m also learning how I want to show up as an autistic human. What does it mean to attend events without pressuring myself to mask (performing excitement, facial expressions, small talk, etc.)?

    Even so I was pretty wiped out afterwards. Here is how I reset the next day:

    • Time alone in the studio. I laid on the daybed and watched Netflix for an hour and then made a collage.
    • Time with Davy in the backyard.
    • A long walk with a podcast.
    • Reading in the bath.
    • Playing Cozy Grove with Davy. (More on that below.)

    I’m still pretty tired, but I feel more or less human again. If I hadn’t been able to take that time I would have stayed in a perpetually burned out / shut down kind of state.

    I still struggle with taking time for myself as a parent, but when I do I am reminded of how powerful and restorative it can be.


    Of shoes & ships & sealing wax

    Other bits & bobs to recommend this week.

    Play

    First off, I have rediscovered Cozy Grove. I played this a couple of years ago on my phone, but we just purchased it for the Nintendo Switch and I have been playing with Davy.

    It’s a really cute and relaxing game.

    You’re a scout marooned on an island haunted by (cute) bear ghosts. You run around the island finding things for them and helping them restore their memories. You can also fish and bake and craft and garden. The music and artistic style sets such an atmosphere. Have a peek.

    I’ve heard it’s kind of like Animal Crossing, but in my opinion is cuter and more fun. (I tried Animal Crossing after finishing this game the first time and didn’t connect with it.) If you’re a casual gamer and just looking for a way to relax would really recommend Cozy Grove. 🥰


    Read

    The blog post of the week for me was How to Be a Good Assistant to Yourself by Austin Kleon.


    Muse

    This post by @worry__lines on Instagram is really good food for thought.


    TOO Many Tabs

    I’ve invented this section as inspiration to browse and close the tabs I keep open on Safari. I am always dangerously close to the 500 tab limit. Hopefully these creative breadcrumbs offer some inspiration.

    Illustration

    I absolutely love this 1970’s edition of The Sword in the Stone illustrated by Alan Lee. Merlin’s cottage has always been evocative for me and this is just how I’ve imagined it.

    Vintage paperback cover of Sword in the Stone by T.H. White with art by Alan Lee. Merlin is instructing Arthur who sits at his feet. They are in Merlin's cottage which is filled with ephemera of wizardry including an armillary sphere, an owl, a skull, and a crocodile hanging from the ceiling. The whole cottage is crammed full of objects.

    I made this discovery while looking for images of my teacher muses for home educating. A few weeks later I bought a copy from ABE Books so I really don’t need this tab open anymore.

    Word Nerd

    Etaoin shrdlu was used as a “red flag by typesetters to show an error in text, but sometimes it was overlooked and made it into print.” It is the approximate order of frequency of the 12 most commonly used letters in the English language.” via The Dusty Wheel

    Wait, this is real?

    This tab was open because I saw this butterfly on Instagram and didn’t believe it was real. Fact check!

    It is indeed an orange oak leaf. Perfectly camouflaged on the outside with brilliant colorful wings when open.

    Well that was effective! Maybe I’ll do this again. What do you think?


    Thanks for reading!

    I’d love to hear what you connected with and have a chat in comments.

    Cheers,

    Sarah signed with a swoopy S
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