Transcendence of a Productivity Addict
Loved this Podcast Episode from Kening Zhu
Transcendence of a Productivity Addict
Loved this Podcast Episode from Kening Zhu
The wild rabbit that lives under my art studio, which is called The Rabbit Hole, and was named before this beauty moved in.
Music from the 1985 Alice in Wonderland miniseries.
“In my experience, there is no such thing as “clerical work” in writing: the donkey work is crucial to the process, as is having to sort through the mess of the draft — that’s the art of self-editing, and it’s the art of finding what you didn’t know you were looking for.”
Austin Kleon on AI
I’ve exhibited my work across the country, but this is the first time I’ve been able to attend and see my art in a gallery setting. Thanks to Local Color Studio for including me in this group exhibition.
You can see more photos of The Mental Load here.
Last year I took two big marketing classes by brilliant teachers and I’ve decided to ignore some of their biggest advice.
I’ve decided to stop trying to be a cohesive “brand.”
Is this a bad idea? Possibly.
Would I grow faster if I followed branding advice? Assuredly.
But it is not for me.
Over the years I have taken dozens of marketing classes for my many creative pursuits: marketing for wedding photography, marketing for bloggers, marketing for artists, marketing for – – yes, this was an actual class – – weirdos. (That one was actually pretty cool and I would honestly recommend, but I’m still ignoring one of the main lessons.)
What they all have in common is a bit of homework to describe your business in 3 words (usually in the form of a Venn diagram.)
So I carve parts of my identity away like Cinderella’s sisters trying to fit into the the glass slipper.*
I love a bit of homework. So I go about this bit of self mutilation quite happily choosing fonts and color palettes that best fit one facet of my persona.
I think I’m a decade into online marketing classes at this point. Because I’ve been doing this for a while it has become almost second nature. I don’t even question it.
After all it’s not that different than the autistic masking I’ve done all my life. Like many autistics I often find my place in social circles by adding “value.” So this concept was something I am well accustomed to. The homework assignment felt like a no brainer. Show people the stuff they want to see.
Don’t talk about Dungeons and Dragons in polite company.
I fragmented my identity into the bits that were marketable. Sometimes I might even create two completely separate “brands.” I did this for marketing reasons, but also to appear less “scattered”, “unfocused”, or “flaky”. I see now that I was trying to hide neurodivergent traits that are classically associated with ADHD.
Right after my masters degree I splintered into two people. The creative one and the geeky one.
I started a wedding photography business inspired by vintage books. Meanwhile I was making quirky YouTube videos as one half of Swot Sisters. I’ve never found a way for those parts of myself to really inhabit the same space. Even last year I started two separate Substacks.
An artsy Substack to talk about creativity. And a geeky space themed Substack to talk about neurodivergence (while weaving in lots of Star Trek and Doctor Who references.)
I finally merged them last month.
Over the years I’ve gone through a variety of rebrands. But I never found a “brand” that didn’t pinch like wearing a too small pair of shoes.
Even as I lost people who thought I was a flibbertigibbet.*
I found myself surrounded by YOU. Curious, creative souls who don’t seem to mind (or actually like it?) when I color outside the lines, show the mess, or pilot the spaceship at breakneck speeds.
Buckle your seatbelt because it’s going to be a bumpy ride.
I am done with chopping off pieces of myself to appear more “professional.” I’m ready to put on my Frizzle jumpsuit and get messy!
Moving forward you can expect more complexity, more mess, and more contradictory humanity here.
I’m a human who:
Who knows what may bubble up next?
Cheers,