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  • It's me, Sarah Shotts. Zine inside!

    From the Compost Heap header. A pencil style illustration of a compost heap with flowers and plants growing around it. A bee buzzes by and a white rabbit hops by.

    I made you a zine!

    Because The Medium is the Message I’ve given up weekly blogging and I’m making monthly zines instead.

    Here’s how it works.

    First, I noodle around with an idea. I type up a few notes on my phone and mull it over.

    I might browse are.na to find some images or I might use a photograph.

    Next, I do 2-3 rounds of edits. This process is powered by my kid’s hyperfocus when playing Zelda Breath of the Wild.

    Then, I go out to my studio and load up my 1950’s Underwood typewriter.

    Unless there’s a big problem (like above: when I loaded my typewriter ribbon backwards) I do my best to type the zine in one go. The mistakes and typos are part of the zine aesthetic and show it was made by hand.

    I actually love when the letters print twice or a little crooked. It feels punk rock in a world with AI.

    Then I add any images with double stick tape. I’ve decided to go full analogue and not do any digital touch ups.

    I Xerox the final product on my laser printer and send physical copies to my patrons (pledges starting at $3 on Patreon.)

    But you don’t have to pay to read. I’ll be sending a virtual zine every month to YOU.

    If this works.

    I’m not sure how well the zine will read on phone screens so this is a bit of an experiment. You may have to pinch and zoom.

    Or read on a computer. You can click here to read on archive.org. It’s pretty cool over there because you can flip the pages and see the spreads as they were designed.

    Otherwise I’ve popped the images directly below.


    Keep reading here.

    Accessible Version (for screenreaders)

    Bibliography (all of my research linked on are.na)


    Algorithm Free Portals

    Websites cost money. If we don’t pay directly they are making their money by selling our attention (ads) or mining our data (for advertisers or to train AI.)

    Here are some algorithm free websites I have been enjoying. I am happy to chip in my support for the services they are providing.

    are.na 

    Like Pinterest for art nerds. I started with a free account and quickly fell in love. There’s also an educator discount.

    Here’s a peek at the mood board for my fantasy novel.

    micro.blog 

    A simple microblogging platform. This is the passion project of Manton Reece, author of Indie Microblogging. He created micro.blog as a simple solution to own your own microblogging content. I could write a whole post about how great this is (for $5 a month), but I’ll try to keep it short. You can use it to build a website, make a blog, or microblog (like a Twitter or Instagram alternative.)

    I am playing around with a photo blog which automatically publishes to Bluesky. You can also subscribe to it via RSS.

    micro.blog is the way the web should work. It can be integrated with so many different things. I’ve even set up Beehiiv to automatically archive itself at sarahshotts.blog 


    Yes, I did mention bsky.app.

    Bluesky is a public benefit corporation with the mission to “to develop and drive large-scale adoption of technologies for open and decentralized public conversation.” (Source)

    This is a radical experiment in prioritizing the open web over commercial success.

    You have so much control over your experience there and you can even follow Bluesky feeds through RSS or on other platforms (like the micro.blog app).

    I’m going to be honest I’m mostly there for Wheel of Time (Season 3 is coming SOON y’all!) But I also made an artist / writer account and we’ll see where it goes. If you sign up let me know I’d love to connect with you there. Another cool thing about it is that they use domain names (if you have one) so I am https://bsky.app/profile/sarahshotts-com.preview-domain.com.

    Come on over to blue skies. Claim your name at least!


    My biggest frustration the last time I tested Beehiiv was the friction in the comment system. But I overlooked the simplest solution.

    I’ve turned comments off.

    Just hit reply to message me directly (or text me if you know me.)

    So much cozier.


    P.S. I should probably port over my “ways to support” banner, but it’s nearly midnight and we are drowning in sales emails this month anyway. I’ll put it back in January.

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  • The Medium is the Message

    A few years ago I started making artwork with a gallery setting in mind (rather than Instagram.) That completely changed the kinds of things I was making.

    An embroidery frame holds a cross stitch that reads "I'm Fine". A second image shows the reverse which is a tangled mess of navy blue thread.

    I started the series My Brain on Motherhood and have been in over 10 fine art exhibitions. That never would have happened if I kept making art “for” the Internet.

    The medium is the message.

    The platform that we create for work for informs the work.

    Earlier this year, I stopped writing paywalled posts for paying supporters and started sending letters in the mail.

    Changing the medium of the message has made that work feel more personal and also more like human connection and less like work. So I’ve been wondering how to bring that energy to what I’m making here.

    I’m contemplating the ways in which I might go analogue with my newsletter in the new year.

    To test it out I’ve typed up I am not a brand. I’m a human. as a zine.

    This will be going out to my paid supporters this month as an experiment. (You can sub for as little as $3 a month via Patreon.) I’ll might alternate letters and zines depending on what I have to say.

    What’s interesting to me is how much this is about intention.

    Once made the work with an art gallery in mind – I can then share it on Instagram. (My “I’m Fine” cross stitch actually went low key viral.)

    But the frame in which I formulate ideas changes what I make.


    So when I say I’m going “analogue” I’m thinking of creating physical zines on my typewriter. That’s the medium. I’ll send paper copies to paying supporters (a sliding scale starting at $3 a month.)

    Once I’ve made that I can then archive digital versions of that zine on my website or Internet Archive (like this). I’ll send fewer emails (monthly or quarterly) that point directly to my website and / or compost heap. So the email newsletter becomes a channel to share my work and not the medium of the work itself.

    (How does that sound Seth Werkheiser?)

    I’m less and less comfortable having the work that I make live on someone else’s platform and this is an experiment I am excited to try.

    I’ve been circling around this idea for months now and I finally discovered Mail Blog and it inspired me to give it a go.

    If you’re considering how creating for the Internet in general is informing your work I’d really recommend the book The Medium is the Message by Marshall McLuhan.


    In the Studio ✂️

    Meanwhile here are a few updates from my creative ecosystem.

    First up, Entwined has gone to the editor!

    I’m also taking a course on sensory regulation with my partner. David and I are painting these sensory regulation cards and I’m very excited about them. (I don’t have it handy, but let me know if you’d like an affiliate link.)

    A lot of creative energy is also going into creating spaces for learning.

    And I’m also using our new laser printer to design our own handwriting sheets. (We’re saving the paper for a recycled paper bookmark project I’ve been ideating for about 5 years.)

    I also made this Wheel of Time inspired snowflake for WoTtober


    In the Garden 🌱

    Our garden is completely feral.

    But these volunteer tomatoes are VERY happy.


    Reading 📖

    Inspired by Hayley Dunlop I thought I might share more of the picture books we’re reading. This one has been a big hit. (No loose teeth yet, but we’re preparing to understand when it does happen.)

    Bear’s Loose Tooth


    Digital Foraging 🍁


    You can see another example of The Medium is the Message by these flashbacks to the time I was a “YouTuber.” I’m exhausted just thinking about trying to mask as much as I did in 2016.

    Seven years past.

    How to Make Leaf Rubbings on YouTube

    Eight years past.

    October Favorites 2016 on YouTube

    via Double Double Toil and Trouble an October roundup post on Substack from 2022.


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    The Internet is like a tin can telephone. It’s just a rusty can until someone talks back.

    What are you making? What are you growing? What are you finding inspiring?

    Hit reply and let me know.


    This newsletter is a curated collection of tidbits from my overgrown Compost Heap (or digital garden.) Rummage around, turn the heap, and see what you can find for yourself. 🪱🐛🌱

    Illustrations by Gracie Klumpp of Leave the Fingerprints. 🐞

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  • Bright Spots for Your Day

    I’m still writing a novel so I’m keeping this short and sweet.


    In the Studio ✂️

    When I finish a big project (like crowdfunding Entwined) or have a lot of big feelings to process I like to make things with my hands.

    After my first book I started my first bricolage The Mental Load.

    This month I made The Mental Load II. This sculpture is roughly the size of my child and includes broken toys and the detritus of motherhood.

    Don’t worry. We have two Elmo figures for some reason and this one was all scratched up.

    More photos here.


    Exciting updates to Self Pub 101! 📖

    Just a reminder this course is completely free.

    This is not a funnel.

    It’s not a marketing tool.

    It’s just me paying it forward to help other indie authors.

    This month there are two new guest speakers!


    Many thanks to Nathaniel Roy of A Book Designer’s Notebook for generously recording How to Collaborate with a Book Designer.

    There is also a new indie author spotlight featuring fantasy novelist B. S. H. Garcia (Part One & Part Two.)


    Stop everything. 🍁

    Before you go back to the real world open a new tab and watch this short video of Mr. Rogers visiting Eric Carle’s art studio.

    (If you didn’t already know Eric Carle is the illustrator of many classic children’s books including The Very Hungry Caterpillar.)

    If you want to live in the warm and fuzzy for a bit longer hop over to Eric Carle’s blog and read what he wrote about the program in 1997.

    And drop by Mitchell Volk’s metaphorical seed swap. 🌱


    Profits to Charity ☕️

    Tis the season for gifting.

    Two of my favorite authors and educators (John & Hank Green) founded good.store which donates 100% of profits to charity.

    Over the past year they have donated 9 million dollars to support maternal mortality and tuberculosis treatment in impoverished countries.

    If you’d like to gift loose leaf tea, coffee, soap, or quirky socks, swing by good.store and use my affiliate code SARAHDSHOTTS for 25% off.

    I don’t do much affiliate marketing, but I really love good.store’s mission. And the Keats & Co. Breakfast Tea is my new favorite. ☕️


    The Compost Heap is free to all. Thanks for exchanging your time and energy. If you’re feeling particularly generous here are other ways you can lend your support.

    • Leave a comment (it’s free!)
    • Restack or recommend on Substack.
    • Buy my book.
    • Forward this email to a friend.
    • Or pledge support via Patreon ($3+) or Substack ($7+).

    Join during November to get this zine in your mailbox!

    If you missed my last post I’m planning to shapeshift this newsletter into a zine in 2025. This month was an experiment and I really loved making this. I’m definitely leaning into analogue in the new year.

    Meanwhile you are welcome to reach out, but I am unlikely to respond in a timely fashion. November is for noveling.

    Cheers,


    This newsletter is a curated collection of tidbits from my overgrown Compost Heap (or digital garden.) Rummage around, turn the heap, and see what you can find for yourself. 🪱🐛🌱

    Illustrations by Gracie Klumpp of Leave the Fingerprints. 🐞


    Originally published on Substack November 20, 2024

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  • Shapeshifting into a zine 💫

    From the Compost Heap header. A pencil style illustration of a compost heap with flowers and plants growing around it. A bee buzzes by and a white rabbit hops by.

    The Medium is the Message

    A few years ago I started making artwork with a gallery setting in mind (rather than Instagram.) That completely changed the kinds of things I was making.

    White child sized t shirt on a silver clothes hanger covered in clothing tags of various brands and sizes.

    I started the series My Brain on Motherhood and have been in over 10 fine art exhibitions.

    That never would have happened if I kept making art “for” the Internet.

    The medium is the message.

    The platform that we create work for informs the work.

    Earlier this year, I stopped writing paywalled posts for paying supporters and started sending letters in the mail.

    Processed with VSCO with 1pro preset

    Changing the medium of the message has made that work feel more personal and also more like human connection and less like work.

    So I’ve been wondering how to bring that energy to what I’m making here.

    I’m contemplating the ways in which I might go analogue with my newsletter in the new year.

    To test it out I’ve typed up I am not a brand. I’m a human. as a zine.

    2024-10-25-Zine.jpeg

    This will be going out to my paid supporters this month as an experiment. (You can also order one from my shop.)

    I might alternate letters and zines depending on what I have to say.

    What’s interesting to me is how much this is about intention.

    Once I made the work with an art gallery in mind – I can then share it on Instagram. (My “I’m Fine” cross stitch actually went low key viral.)

    But the frame in which I formulate ideas changes what I make.

    Teal green typewriter with an open carriage for cleaning sits on a wooden desk. Library style drawers and wart supplies are behind.

    So when I say I’m going “analogue” I’m thinking of creating physical zines on my typewriter. That’s the medium. I’ll send paper copies to paying supporters.

    Once I’ve made that I can then archive digital versions of that zine on my website or Internet Archive (like this). I’ll send fewer emails (monthly or quarterly) that point directly to my website and / or compost heap. So the email newsletter becomes a channel to share my work and not the medium of the work itself.

    (How does that sound Seth Werkheiser?)

    I’m less and less comfortable having the work that I make live on someone else’s platform and this is an experiment I am excited to try.

    I’ve been circling around this idea for months now and I finally discovered Mail Blog via Independent Creative and it inspired me to give analogue a go.

    If you’re considering how creating for the Internet in general is informing your work I’d really recommend the book The Medium is the Message by Marshall McLuhan.


    In the Studio ✂️

    Meanwhile here are a few updates from my creative ecosystem.

    First up, Entwined has gone to the editor!

    Selfie holding a copy of Entwined in my studio with my kid playing video games on the daybed behind me. I have on a Rose Apothecary shirt, green corduroy overshirt, and green glasses. I have short brownish hair and blue eyes.

    I’m also taking a course on sensory regulation with my partner. David and I are painting these sensory regulation cards and I’m very excited about them. (I don’t have it handy, but let me know if you’d like an affiliate link.)

    Watercolor cards with sensory supports and spread out on a table with art supplies

    A lot of creative energy is also going into creating spaces for learning.

    And I’m also using our new laser printer to design our own handwriting sheets. (We’re saving the paper for a recycled paper bookmark project I’ve been ideating for about 5 years.)

    I also made this Wheel of Time inspired snowflake for WoTtober


    In the Garden 🌱

    Our garden is completely feral.

    But these volunteer tomatoes are VERY happy.


    Books 📖

    Inspired by Hayley Dunlop I thought I might share more of the picture books we’re reading. This one has been a big hit. (No loose teeth yet, but we’re preparing to understand when it does happen.)

    Bear’s Loose Tooth


    Digital Foraging 🍁

    Enchantment means “to be inside a song.” via Writing Excuses


    Time Travel banner. Hand drawn illustrtation of TARDIS in space surrounded by swirling lines and stars.

    You can see another example of The Medium is the Message by these flashbacks to the time I was a “YouTuber.” I’m exhausted just thinking about trying to mask as much as I did in 2016.

    Seven years past.

    How to Make Leaf Rubbings on YouTube

    Eight years past.

    October Favorites 2016 on YouTube

    via Double Double Toil and Trouble an October roundup post on Substack from 2022.


    Ways to support header includes an illustrated white rabbit hopping into some wildflowers.

    The Compost Heap is free to all. Thanks for exchanging your time and energy. If you’re feeling particularly generous here are other ways you can lend your support.

    • Leave a comment (it’s free!)
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    • Buy my book.
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    Drawing of a tin can telephone and the words Let's chat

    The Internet is like a tin can telephone. It’s just a rusty can until someone talks back.

    What are you making? What are you growing? What are you finding inspiring?

    I appreciate you.

    Sarah signed with a swoopy S

    Illustrations by Gracie Klumpp of Leave the Fingerprints. 🐞

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  • How I Survived My First Author Event

    Last week I attended NWA Book Fest… my first appearance as an author. Indeed my first gathering of any kind since COVID times. I wanted to take some time to share about that experience.

    I’m attempting a bit of writing today while Davy “types” on his new keyboard and iPad app.

    I was so busy the week before I didn’t have any time to be nervous. I practiced my reading a time or two, installed the Square Up app to take credit card payments, and put my books in a box.

    There was a little bit of scheduling confusion and the event was running early so I was rushed right onto stage within minutes of showing up.

    (Not ideal for an autistic. I’m not gonna lie.)

    I also expected to be introduced and had only prepared for a reading. Somehow I managed to introduce myself and my book without rehearsal. I think its down to how often I have talked about my book online. Maybe it does get easier with practice. I wouldn’t say I’m captivating, but I did it.

    Right after my reading I had a group of blogger friends show up to hear me. They just missed me because of the schedule kerfuffle, but we took a photo anyway.

    Five women and a nonbinary author standing against a white brick wall smiling. It's chilly weather so we are all in various sweaters and jean jackets. Three are wearing sunglasses. I am holding my book.

    Then I did a short signing and sold 4 books. 🥳

    (Shout out to my friend Lori Lynn who served as my “emotional support extrovert” and helped me make small talk at my signing table.)

    It was really nice to see people respond to my book in real time. One woman immediately connected my book to The Artist’s Way which completely made my day. So thankful to everyone who dropped by to take a look.

    Some lessons I learned and will be adding to my self publishing course:

    • Print a QR code to purchase the ebook. (My hardcover is a deluxe edition and more people might have purchased the digital bundle at a lower price point.)
    • Print my Venmo code. (Spelling it out did not seem to work.)
    • Have something to hold business cards / stickers so they don’t blow away.
    • Probably bring a book holder as well. The books kept tumbling off the table and one or two may be damaged.

    Here is actual footage of me after the event. 😂

    (That’s Odo from Star Trek Deep Space Nine.)

    It took a lot out of me.

    I realized that this simple brief appearance pushed me to the edge of my capacity and I definitely should NOT sign up for longer events any time soon. (After two hours I felt the way I normally do after a whole convention. )

    I believe this is due to…

    • More sensory overload on a daily basis from parenting.
    • Diminished social capacity due to socializing with my toddler 24/7. (I’m just going to call him toddler till he turns 4, ok?)
    • Not going to any events for 3-4 years during early motherhood / COVID times. I am both out of practice at masking and have no desire to return to that level of social performance.

    Not only am I “re-entering” the world after COVID lockdowns, but I’m also learning how I want to show up as an autistic human. What does it mean to attend events without pressuring myself to mask (performing excitement, facial expressions, small talk, etc.)?

    Even so I was pretty wiped out afterwards. Here is how I reset the next day:

    • Time alone in the studio. I laid on the daybed and watched Netflix for an hour and then made a collage.
    • Time with Davy in the backyard.
    • A long walk with a podcast.
    • Reading in the bath.
    • Playing Cozy Grove with Davy. (More on that below.)

    I’m still pretty tired, but I feel more or less human again. If I hadn’t been able to take that time I would have stayed in a perpetually burned out / shut down kind of state.

    I still struggle with taking time for myself as a parent, but when I do I am reminded of how powerful and restorative it can be.


    Of shoes & ships & sealing wax

    Other bits & bobs to recommend this week.

    Play

    First off, I have rediscovered Cozy Grove. I played this a couple of years ago on my phone, but we just purchased it for the Nintendo Switch and I have been playing with Davy.

    It’s a really cute and relaxing game.

    You’re a scout marooned on an island haunted by (cute) bear ghosts. You run around the island finding things for them and helping them restore their memories. You can also fish and bake and craft and garden. The music and artistic style sets such an atmosphere. Have a peek.

    I’ve heard it’s kind of like Animal Crossing, but in my opinion is cuter and more fun. (I tried Animal Crossing after finishing this game the first time and didn’t connect with it.) If you’re a casual gamer and just looking for a way to relax would really recommend Cozy Grove. 🥰


    Read

    The blog post of the week for me was How to Be a Good Assistant to Yourself by Austin Kleon.


    Muse

    This post by @worry__lines on Instagram is really good food for thought.


    TOO Many Tabs

    I’ve invented this section as inspiration to browse and close the tabs I keep open on Safari. I am always dangerously close to the 500 tab limit. Hopefully these creative breadcrumbs offer some inspiration.

    Illustration

    I absolutely love this 1970’s edition of The Sword in the Stone illustrated by Alan Lee. Merlin’s cottage has always been evocative for me and this is just how I’ve imagined it.

    Vintage paperback cover of Sword in the Stone by T.H. White with art by Alan Lee. Merlin is instructing Arthur who sits at his feet. They are in Merlin's cottage which is filled with ephemera of wizardry including an armillary sphere, an owl, a skull, and a crocodile hanging from the ceiling. The whole cottage is crammed full of objects.

    I made this discovery while looking for images of my teacher muses for home educating. A few weeks later I bought a copy from ABE Books so I really don’t need this tab open anymore.

    Word Nerd

    Etaoin shrdlu was used as a “red flag by typesetters to show an error in text, but sometimes it was overlooked and made it into print.” It is the approximate order of frequency of the 12 most commonly used letters in the English language.” via The Dusty Wheel

    Wait, this is real?

    This tab was open because I saw this butterfly on Instagram and didn’t believe it was real. Fact check!

    It is indeed an orange oak leaf. Perfectly camouflaged on the outside with brilliant colorful wings when open.

    Well that was effective! Maybe I’ll do this again. What do you think?


    Thanks for reading!

    I’d love to hear what you connected with and have a chat in comments.

    Cheers,

    Sarah signed with a swoopy S
    Read more: How I Survived My First Author Event
  • More Reaching Than Rooting

    Gray green rabbit hopping over the text "down the rabbit hole" in a typewriter font

    First off, a quick update for local folks!

    I’ll be attending my very first book festival as a self published author this Saturday! I’ll be doing a reading and signing at NWA Book Fest and would love to see you there! It feels surreal and I’m not sure I quite believe it’s real yet.

    Find all the festival information here. (Catch me on the main stage at 2:30pm).


    in the studio header

    A peek into my creative process and current works in progress.

    This week I’ve had more “reaching” energy than “rooting.”

    Along with preparing for the festival I’ve also applied to two more art exhibitions at Spilt Milk Gallery and The Anthropology of Motherhood.

    You can download either of these printables (Reach & Root or 100 Submissions) here.

    100 Submissions printable has a willow tree on top and gold stars in the first three boxes. A date stamp and keys also sit on the desk.

    I recorded a podcast episode with Kiki from Heiter Magazine. (Coming your way in April.) Podcast interviews take a lot of energy so I am experimenting with quarterly guests this year. In the past I’ve tried weekly or monthly and that has been too much. This is part of my seasonal planning approach and slowing down to find my own pace.

    I’m also undertaking a just-for-fun puppet alteration project for a Wheel of Time parody contest. I haven’t done any crafting or fan art in a really long time so this has been fun.

    Also Davy is fascinated.

    Maybe I’ll share a peek at that next week.


    of shoes and ships and sealing wax header

    Other bits and bobs I’d like to recommend…

    Watch

    “I used to think that art had to begreat to be worthwhile. Now, I only think it has to be to be worthwhile.” John Green. Maybe Art Only Needs to Be. Feb 21, 2023.

    Me too, John, me too.

    Listen

    The On Being podcast is BACK and I am loving it! These two episodes were amazing.

    Janine Benyus Biomimicry, an Operating Manual for Earthlings on natural organisms as mentors and peers… learning from them rather than about them.

    And Rick Rubin Magic, Everyday Mystery, and Getting Creative. I have SO MANY quotes from this one because I listened while parked in the car while Davy napped:

    • “The real practice of the artist is a way of being in the world.”
    • “It’s hard for me to finish projects because I always see the possibilities of what else we could try and I want to try everything…”
    • “What I came to realize is that there is a time for this open play. And it’s in those first two parts of the process, the seed phase… and experimenting.”
    • “By working with sensitive artists, we resonate together in that we’re feeling things that not everybody else is feeling.”
    • “There is no connection between the amount of time invested and how good something is.”
    • “The sustainable part of the practice is: start with things that are easy to do.”

    Read

    Reflections on shapeshifting and reframing “scattered” by Cody Cook-Parrott


    That’s all for this week, but I’d love to know what you’re up to.

    Feel free to drop a link or comment below.

    Cheers,

    Sarah signed with a swoopy S
    Read more: More Reaching Than Rooting
  • Making 360 VR with a 3 year old collaborator ✨

    Gray green rabbit hopping over the text 
"down the rabbit hole" in a typewriter font

    Hullo all,

    I’m playing with the structure a bit here. Trying out categories rather than themed emails. I’m also bringing back some old themes long time supporters may recognize.

    Let me know what you think.

    I haven’t had much studio time this month unless you count making Number Block counting beads with Davy and the 3 hour masterclass I took from Amie McNee & Jimmy Winestock.


    A peek into my creative process and an update on my collection, This is my Brain on Motherhood.

    This week I’m sharing a sneak peek at a 360 VR piece I made in December. It’s taken a while to work out how to share this online.

    Still frame of 360 VR experience. A white play button floats over a nursery. Dark red yarn is strung around the room.

    UNRAVEL

    2023 / VR 360
    An immersive experience demonstrating my internal experience of motherhood.
    As an autistic parent my brain does not prune synaptic pathways. This means to process information I often have to unravel a tangle of connected thoughts among sensory input, memories, and connections most people would overlook.

    There are two ways to experience this work.

    • If you have the YouTube app you can experience this work in VR here. Just moving your phone to look around. Please select HD by tapping the cog or it will load super blurry. 🫣
    • Don’t have the YouTube app? Here’s a simulation of how it looks in 3D.
    • Or you browse still photographs here.

    Curious about the process? Here’s a timelapse.

    This piece was inspired by a piece of writing by Hayley Dunlop which reminded me of doing this as a child. It was purely creative play at the time. I later revisited this process in directing class when I was asked to “completely transform the space.”

    Hayley’s writing connected this memory to neurodivergent thought patterns which immediately made me want to create this with Davy.

    Working alongside him added all sorts of layers – both layers of meaning – and literal pools of knots (which were never part of my previous efforts.) 😂


    of shoes and ships and sealing wax header in typwriter font

    Other bits and bobs I’d like to recommend this week.

    • Katherine May’s podcast How We Live Now with Priya Parker – This is a chat about gathering well and drawing the lines we need around different social events and communities. I couldn’t have listened to this as a better time as I had been struggling with the Code of Conduct for my membership program and this gave me all the confidence to go with my gut. I’ve also ordered Priya’s book (affiliate link) which happens to have a gorgeous watercolor cover.
    • We’ve subscribed to the newspaper for the first time ever and I loved this article about artist Thaddeus Mosley.
    • Waiting for a quiet moment to enjoy this studio tour…

    I also admired these shadows.

    Windy stick casts shadows on white studio wall

    Minor updates March 2025 to correct links and images.

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